UGH I picked up my friend’s work shift today because I’m far too nice and I was already kind of dreading it

but then I threw up earlier and burst into tears during my behavior analysis lab class, so now I want to go even less

asldkfnsadlk;fnasdkfnsadkfnsad fuck everything

jimenhimself:

ifthewallscouldspeak:

videohall:

Dubstep Christmas 2012 - wait for it… (1:55)

> America love some motherfreaking Christmas lights.

> Its all fun and games till epilepsy.

> I bet their neighbors love them.

> Whoever set this up has a very specific mix of skills.

> Dat electric bill.

> At 1:58 I literally burst out laughing.

I am thoroughly entertained by this.

Two of my favorite things, Christmas and dubstep. Now we just need to add some liquor and some violent fucking.

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sometimes I look at the handful of pills/supplements I have to take in a day and I just get really sad.

like seriously, especially now that I’m sick I feel like a total pillhead. I don’t even want to go to class, I just want to sit around in my boxers and watch netflix D:

so I’ve been late to work before, but I’ve never just not shown up… until today. I woke up and it was light outside and instantly I knew that I fucked up. apparently neither of my alarms woke me this morning.

lately I’ve been sick, and I’m pretty sure my whole store knows it. I’ve been coughing so hard I’ve feared peeing my pants, and my voice is completely shot. I couldn’t come in on saturday because I got a note from the doctor telling me to rest. yesterday, I did go in, but my manager had to step in a few times at my register so I could go get water/stop myself from coughing. SO maybe the fact that I slept in will be brushed over because I’m sick… I can only hope so…

I’m still within my three month probationary period (it ends in 22 days!), and so technically a no-call-no-show should get me fired… but when I called in and asked whether I should come in or if I was fired, my boss just laughed and told me we’d talk on wednesday. I am so fucking nervous.

I CANNOT be late for work on wednesday. I hope everything goes well, because I really don’t want to lose my job. cross your fingers for me, I guess.

MY LUNGS ARE MADE OF TRASH

I can’t even lay down because I keep losing my breath and coughing uncontrollably

plus, I’m blowing my nose like every minute

I’ve used my nebulizer like four times and I still can’t breathe PLUS now I’m super hyped up from the medicine so I won’t be sleeping anytime soon

aaaaaaaaaand I work at 6 in the morning

fuck everything.

soooo, for my day off I was going to watch a bunch of grey’s anatomy, smoke, and take painkillers until I felt better.

I got up at like eight which is early for me, and did just that for quite a while. took a bubble bath at around two, and at three decided to lay down for a little while.

it’s 10:00 at night and I just woke up. -_______- I have to work at 4:30 am tomorrow, so luckily I’m still tired. gonna make myself some soup, take some more pills, and head back to bed. my sleeping schedule is so fucked up.

I have drank a half gallon of apple juice in the past 24 hours whoops

I think I really enjoyed watching toddlers and tiaras yesterday on these painkillers because it was so stupid and mindless. because now I’m trying to watch grey’s anatomy, and I keep having to rewind because I can’t keep up with conversation. 

my brain is really slow today.

watching toddlers and tiaras while eating soup in my pjs

this show normally disgusts me, but codeine makes it hilarious

things that aren’t cool:

• seeing a huge dead bird that looks like it could have possibly once been an eagle (????) on the side of the road
• crashing your bike on the side of the road and falling into a bush on your way to the doctor because your fucking cow-town doesn’t have sidewalks
• dental pain
• finding out that after all your efforts, you haven’t lost any fucking weight

things that are cool:

• being prescribed heavy narcotics for your dental pain
• finding HD downloads of the hunger games and all 8 harry potter movies so that you can veg in front of your computer in your jammies all day

holy fucking shit.

I fell asleep, and when I woke up found that my pericoronitis (apparently that’s the medical term for the painful shit that’s been going on in my mouth) had worsened to an incredible extent. I can barely open my mouth now, and my whole jaw is radiating with pain. 

I’m kind of pissed because my deep sickness-induced slumber made me miss a call from work, asking if I could come in to cover the 6-10 shift because they were short on cashiers. while it’s probably good that I have time to rest, I really could use the money. :/

looks like I’m going to urgent care, because tylonel isn’t doing anything. hopefully they’ll give me some antibiotics and painkillers, and I can just veg out in front of the tv til I work on friday.

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you told me not to let this effect my grades

I promised myself that I wouldn’t

but ever since spring break, everything’s just been going downhill: my school work, my health… I just want to move to germany with my parents.